Saturday, March 27, 2010

A Sweet Surprise

I woke up this morning to a sweet surprise. You had gotten up and instead of waking me up you cleaned the kitchen and family room for me and then while I made breakfast you cleaned my room and Brigham's room. This was all done without asking at all. You are an amazing 6-year-old! I don't think that there is possibly another girl out there that could or would do this for their mom. I really appreciate your kindness and willingness to always help me out. I just wanted to say thank-you! I love you!

Friday, March 26, 2010

Girl's Night

Last night Dad kept the boys so just the two of us could spend the evening together. We both needed some girl time and we had a lot of fun. You wanted to start at Mi Amigo's for dinner which made me happy since it is my favorite place. I enjoyed sitting and talking about school, friends and life with you and we of course played lots of games of tic-tac-toe. I asked you why you have been so sad lately and you said that you didn't know but that your body felt funny and you feel like crying all the time. My heart breaks for you. I wish I could take all of your pain away, but that is not the plan. This life is a time of trials and this is one that you must go through at your young age.

I want you to know that I love you Brooklyn. I feel sad too a lot and I can't always explain why. You are not alone. I will be by your side the entire way. You can come to me. It is ok to be sad and it is ok to cry. It will help you to feel better. I am trying to teach you that when you feel this way that you can always turn to the Lord. He will be by your side when nobody else can be. He knows your heart and He knows how you feel. He loves you very much, Brooklyn and He wants to help you feel better. His love can heal your heart.

After dinner we headed to the movies to see Princess and the Frog. I loved that you wanted to sit on my lap the entire movie. We sat and cuddled and just enjoyed being close to one another. I think that is what you need right now and I was happy to do it.

Thanks for spending the evening with me my sweet daughter. I love you!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Struggling

Brooklyn, my sweet girl, I really hope you know how much I love you. You are my daughter and you will always be mine. I still remember like it was yesterday the first time I held you in my arms. Your sweet smile will be forever in my heart. It has been a rough week for you and I am not exactly sure why. I can tell that you are struggling with your adoption even though you can't voice your emotions and feelings and it breaks my heart for you. I want you to feel confident and strong in the fact that you are adopted. This was the plan before you were born. But even knowing that, it doesn't take away the pain that is associated with it. I know that you want to know more about your birthmom as we have talked about it before. Whenever I ask you what you would tell her if you could talk to her and you always respond the same way, without any hesitation, "I just want to tell her I love her." I pray that you will get the chance to tell her that one day. I know that she would love more than anything to hear you say those words to her.

You are a very intelligent girl, Brooklyn. And you want to know as much as you can about your birthmom and all the details of your adoption. I wish I had more information that I could give you, but unfortunately I don't have much information. I will always tell you anything that I know. Please know that I am always here for you. You can always talk about how you feel with me. Please don't be afraid of hurting me. I know that I will always be your mom no matter what. I will always love you. You wanting to know your birthmom will not take anything away from our relationship.

I don't know how you feel and I am not going to even pretend to, but I have an idea how you feel. I think of my mom often. I miss her. I don't remember many things about her since I was so young when she passed away. If I was given the chance I would tell her the exact same thing that you would say to your birthmom, "I love you." We don't have to know them to feel connected with them. Your birthmom will always be a part of you just as my mom will always be a part of me. There will come a day when we will both see them again. What an amazing reunion that will be. In the meantime, Brooklyn, please always know that you are loved. You are safe. You are amazing. You have so much love in your heart you amaze me everyday. I have never met someone like you that at 6 years old you can see a need that someone has and you are able to meet that need. Whether it is Talmage needing to be held or fed, playing with Brigham, helping me with the boys, cleaning the house. You are awesome and there is just no other way to put it. You are such a blessing to our family. We would not be the same without you. We are all better people because you are in our lives. I thank Heavenly Father for you everyday. I am one lucky mama to have you as my daughter. You are an amazing example to me and I can only imagine what an incredible mother you will be some day.

I love you, Brooklyn! You are my girl and you always will be.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Question Time

Brooklyn--age 6

If you were granted three wishes what would you want?
1. Going to the nail polish store with Bonnie
2. I would have a girl baby in 5 weeks
3. For Brigham to be nice to be me for my whole life.

If you could meet any celebrity or other personality in the world, who would it be and why?
Hannah Montana

Who is your favourite super hero?
SuperGirl (Spiderman's girlfriend)

If you were an animal then what would you be?
a pink rabbit

What do you want to be when you grow up?
a working person in an office like Suzi and a mom

Which is your favorite song?
Love Story by Taylor Swift

Which is your favorite cartoon character?
Minnie Mouse

Which is your color?
Pink

If you could cook for me what would it be?
bean burritos

What is your favorite book?
Fancy Nancy

What can't you live without?
My family

Where would you like to go on vacation?
Disneyland

What states have you visited?
California, Arizona, Utah, Colorado, Florida, New York, Pennsylvania, Ohio, Idaho, Texas, Washington

What are your favorite foods?
french toast, eggs, watermelon and mashed potatoes

What is the grossest vegetable?
broccoli

What is your favorite vegetable?
I hate vegetables

What makes you laugh?
goofy stories

What is the nicest thing you have ever done for someone?
get them a drink, help them up when they are hurt and play with them

What is love?
mom

Where do you live?
Queen Creek

What is your favorite movie?
Hight School Musical

Who is your best friend?
Shea Deaton

What boy do you like?
JJ of course and then Coy and Justin

Who do you want to marry?
JJ (Joshua)

Questions about Mom

Brooklyn--age 6

1. What is something Mommy always says to you?
You're sweet

2. What makes Mommy happy?
When we give her hugs and kisses

3. What makes Mommy sad?
When we get in trouble.

4. How does Mommy make you laugh?
tickle us

5. What was Mommy like as a child?
liked to play with your friends

6. How old is Mommy?
30

7. How tall is Mommy?
100 inches

8. What is Mommy's favorite thing to do?
sit on the couch with us

9. What does Mommy do when you're not around?
go on a walk with Talmage

10. If Mommy becomes famous, what will it be for?
you are smart, you are beautiful, you are awesome

11. What is Mommy really good at?
taking pictures

12. What is Mommy not very good at?
playing soccer because I always beat you

13. What does Mommy do for her job?
take pictures

14. What is Mommy's favorite food?
Bean burritos (YUM!)

15. What makes you proud of Mommy?
you are really famous--lots of kids know you, Heavenly Father knows you and almost every person in the world knows you (Wow, I guess I didn't know this about myself. LOL)

16. If Mommy were a cartoon character, who would she be?
Minnie Mouse because she is cute and has a pink dress

17. What do you and Mommy do together?
We go to the park together.

18. How are you and Mommy the same?
We both have blonde hair.

19. How are you and Mommy different?
You're bigger

20. How do you know Mommy loves you?
Because you're my mom

21. Where is Mommy's favorite place to go?
Disneyland with me!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Glasses




After school today we went and picked up your very first pair of glasses. You have been excited to pick them up and try them on so you can go show everyone. Well the excitement lasted until we got in the car and you immediately took them off. When I asked why you told me that you were embarrassed by wearing glasses. I must say you look absolutely adorable in them so you have no need to be embarrassed in any way. They make you look so smart and cute. Hopefully it won't be a big deal after you have worn them for a few days. Always remember to be proud of who you are and don't worry about what anyone else thinks. The only thing that matters is how YOU feel. I love you, sweetie!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

First Day of Kindergarten

Well, the first day of kindergarten was a success! You woke me at 6:30 all excited to get ready for school. All of us took you to school and you really didn't want anything to do with the playground you just kept asking when it was time to go into class. When the time finally came I walked you in and you sat down and said goodbye as if it was no big deal. As we walked out of the door Brigham was sad and asked why we were leaving sissy. He had such a sad little face and said that he missed you. Poor little guy. He looks up to you and sure loves his big sis.

After school when I picked you up you had already made a few friends. Your favorite new friend is Gibson and you couldn't stop talking about him. He has CP just like mom, but he can't talk. You thought that his "talker" was the coolest thing ever and you keep asking me when he can come over to play. Your teacher even emailed me today to tell me how patient you were with him. I hope that you two become good friends. I love that you can see past him limitations and just want to be his friend. What a blessing you are to so many people Brooklyn. I can't help but think that you were put in this particular class just so that you and Gibson could be friends. I have really struggled over the past few months trying to figure out where you should go to school. I went back and forth but ultimately felt like this was where you were supposed to be. I even thought about asking for a certain teacher but every time I thought about it I had the impression that Heavenly Father knew where you needed to be and He would put you in a particular class. Then when you were assigned the teacher that everyone else had requested but didn't get I knew that there must be a reason. And now I know why. Honestly I have felt the Spirit very strong today. Stronger than I have in a long time. I KNOW that Heavenly Father is watching over you and He knows you. He knows what you are capable of. He knows that you and only you can make an impact on Gibson's life. And I am sure that Gibson will also make an impact on your life. I am grateful for the gospel and I am grateful for a Heavenly Father that loves each of us. He has a plan for you Brooklyn. He knows YOU! How awesome is that?!

I love you, Brooklyn! You are such a blessing in my life and in the lives of so many others. I don't know how I got so lucky to have you as my daughter. I learn so much from you everyday. You are incredible!